Hey, there. I’m back from a delightful trip to Dallas with my husband and we are feeling so refreshed! For all you marrieds out there–take time to get away, especially if you have kids!
And if you aren’t married, take your best friend on vacation!
Zachary and I each wrote 10 questions on notecards to ask each other on the train. It was a really fun way to get conversation started. And the cool thing was that we didn’t repeat any questions between us but a lot of them dovetailed nicely. So fun!
Here is the train station in Longview where we started our trek Monday morning.
When we arrived to Dallas, got ourselves checked in at the Adolphus Hotel, and started exploring the downtown area, we were cold. Dude. It’s spring break. Shouldn’t need a jacket in Texas. But we did.
That didn’t stop us from having a great at the museums and eating a ton junk food.
I haven’t told y’all this yet, but I started Weight Watchers in December. You might also remember that other blog I had this summer called Weightloss Motivated by Love. (I have since decided to condense all my blogging to this little old blog, so don’t worry–you haven’t missed anything yet.)
And over the past three months, I have been successful at heading in a downward direction. Slowly but surely. As a friend told me, slow and steady wins the race! There is so much freedom in these two things: 1. I know now that I am loved by Jesus and my family and friends no matter what the scale says or what the outside looks like. And 2. Weight Watchers is so practical for me because it’s about budgeting! I can do the money budgeting pretty well, so I like being able to transfer the self-control from that into my diet. A certain amount of points a day and I get to choose what I eat. It’s great!
Which brings me to the revelation about food that I had on our trip.
If I say no to one kind of food, I have to say yes to a different food.
For so long, I have tried to diet by just denying myself the ‘bad’ stuff. I haven’t been great historically in just limiting in to small portions…because I let myself get so ‘starved’ for those higher-calorie things and then I just binge and the cycle of self-hatred and self-destruction continues.
It was linked in my mind by a commercial…thanks, Yoplait. A Swappertunity. I have to put life-giving food in my body, not just keep junk food out or strictly limited.
Y’all probably already knew this, but it was a really powerful revelation to me! It reminds me of when Jesus teaches about cleaning house spiritually in Matthew 12:
43 “When an unclean spirit goes out of a man, he goes through dry places, seeking rest, and finds none. 44 Then he says, ‘I will return to my house from which I came.’ And when he comes, he finds it empty, swept, and put in order. 45 Then he goes and takes with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter and dwell there; and the last state of that man is worse than the first. So shall it also be with this wicked generation.” (NKJV)
If I merely deny myself the food I like to eat, I am banishing the junk-foods demon. He goes for a little while, but if I don’t fill my empty house with something else, he will just try to come back and probably be successful…and “the last state of that girl is worse than the first…” Because then I condemn myself for giving in. And then I eat more to feel better. And then I am upset and self-condemning when the scale reports the consequences of my self-loathing binge-eating.
I have to replace the junk food with the life-giving food. Like a banana. Or an apple. Or a glass of water. So then, when I am drawn to junk food, I can eat just a little (which is good! No hating on the junk food here…just in a budgeted moderation!). I can do this because my house, my body, is full of life-giving nutrients!
I am also trying to invite the Holy Spirit in to the journey as well, asking Him to fill my heart when I am searching for comfort in food. (I’m the only one who does that, right?) I am asking Him to be His Comforter Self and give me Life.
And it is a slow-but-worth-it-so-far and a life-giving journey.
Praise God from whom ALL blessings flow!
Praise Him, ye creatures here below!
Praise Him above, ye heavenly host!
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost!